Yankees aquire Pudge

Pudge Rodriguez is one of my favorite catchers...and now he's a Yankee. Sweet deal!

Not Natural

My vocabulary seems to have a mind of it's own lately. Things fly out of my mouth and I can't believe they're coming from me. I remember in jr. high when I thought cussing was so cool but then it became so un-natural. I admit, there are times I think cussing is funny but lately I've been cussing without even thinking about it. This morning as I was running late for work, talking to my dad on the phone with a crappy bluetooth headset and trying to put my coffee cup in the holder, the lid came off and I spilled coffee in my car. My first reaction? Cuss word! It doesn't phase my dad, he taught me a lot of what I know, but it seemed so wrong at the time. I apologized and said I needed to kick the habit. He laughed and suggested I go to church. I'll admit, my words reflect my heart and lately I've said screw it to nearly everything. I'm going through the motions of life but not living it at all. I need to pray this changes and quick, I've been miserable. Anyway, when I saw the picture of this fawn it reminded me of my recent cussing rant...it just isn't normal.

Step Brothers

So many activities...

If you can handle cussing and crude humor then you might like this. I think I was the only one laughing, but I'm also the only heathen amongst my friends.

Dr. Kate

I think everytime there is an earthquake, this woman shows up on tv. I didn't feel the quake because I was outside investigating the police activity near our office. I must have been walking or something. 5.3...not shabby.

30g of fat

Sounds gross doesn't it? 30 grams of fat in one meal. I totally ate the muffin knowing it too. Who cares? Not I!

George Michael says Obama should run with Hilary. I think the Brit needs to not get involved...don't do it Obama! I've been listening to his book The Audacity of Hope. It's a good listen, probably a good read. This is how I work the summer reading contest, read two while listening to one. I'm a multi-tasker.

The kids next door had a party all night. I'm sure they're in deep when their parents get home, the cops were called twice. I almost called at 11 but didn't because I thought maybe I was just being grumpy and old. At about 4:30 this morning there was a loud knock at the door. It was the cops. They must not be too bright since they thought our house was the party house. No, our house was just the sleepy house. I closed the window and turned on the fan and was fine. Maybe it was my double dose of tylenol pm that helped too, I never sleep that heavy.

I've slept about 18 hours in the last two days. Sorry Trent, don't call after 10. I've just been feeling worn down. Almost to the point where I need to pull the car over because I just might fall asleep at the wheel. Don't worry, I'm feeling better.

Today is a big day. Robbie goes to court and I'm nervous. I can't even imagine what he's feeling. Carol passed away and I feel sad for David. Sometimes I think about what if so and so passed? How would I feel? Would I cry? I'm morbid, what else can I say?

Our softball team came up with the win yesterday. Woohoo! We killed the other team like 26 - 9 or something like that. Although most of our players were recruited on site since many on our roster didn't show. Eh, no biggie. I didn't play as well but we won so I'm okay with my error. My cleats hurt my pinkie toe and that was sad since they're fairly new. Maybe I just need to break them in.

Tonight is SYTYCD and I probably won't watch it until this weekend. I need to sleep. But I do want to vote. Hmmm, what to do?

This is the conclusion of my thoughts at the moment.

The Dark Knight Delivered

I think I prefer Batman to Spiderman

Especially when Batman looks like this. It should be illegal for Bale be so good looking.

The Dark Knight delivered. It was my first IMAX movie and it was a great movie to see on such a big screen. The opening shot of the city was awesome. Ledger was creepy, just as he should have been and Bale was phenomenal. At first I didn't want to see the movie on opening weekend because I didn't want to deal with all of the people, but I'm glad I saw it early on so I can see it again.

Wasted Opportunities?

I got offered a job. A job I wanted, was excited about and could see myself doing for a while. But they only offered me $90 more a year than I'm already making and I admit, this was part of the reason I didn't take the job. Today I'm wondering if I made the right decision. I thought it was the right decision, it felt like the right decision, but sometimes my "colleagues" make me wish I could kick them and cuss them out with the best combination of foul language I could string together. Do you feel my passion right now?

SYTYCD this week and I slept through Wednesday's show because I was exhausted (I blame it on the Lup). If I had the energy I would have been on the phone with Heather Nunn anyway. Sorry Heather. Thank goodness for DVR. What am I going to do when I move out of the Drake's house? Um, I get that not many of you follow this show or feel the same way about it as I do. But I'm still going to give my opinion on the show. I'll give a dollar to anyone who can guess which dance was my favorite. Go ahead, guess. Comfort and Twitch. Hip-hop. Chris Brown. AMAZING! I love it, I love it, I love it (think SNL here)!

I never really liked Kherrington so I'm not sad she's gone. I did love Gev, the underdog, but I knew he wouldn't last long. Will, Twitch, and Joshua are just that good. Comfort and Mark will probably go next which is also fine with me. I like Twitch and Will is just amazing but I'm rooting for Joshua now. I here by declare, Joshua is my pick.

No video this week but this might work.

2008 MLB All Stars

The man whore and the alleged adulterer, but I love them.

I didn't get to catch the first 9 innings of the 2008 MLB All-Star Game because I was playing a little softball myself. I don't want to brag but I did pretty darn good at shortstop. I had some lucky grabs but I did call my dad this morning to thank him for teaching me how to play the game. It was fun and I got recruited to play a second game for a team short on girls. Anyway, back to the MLB game...15 innings later, the AL pulled out the win...again. The NL hasn't won since 1996. That was back when I was still in high school and Jeter was still a rookie. It was a great game and I'm glad it went that long so I could catch half of it. Even though it meant staying up until 11 pm on a work night, it was worth it.

I'm not driving the bitter bus, I took a ride on it.

I took a short ride on the bitter bus. It's probably obvious by my previous post. I think the dollar hot dogs at PETCO park this weekend helped me get over it. There were fireworks at the Padres game and they could easily be the coolest fireworks I've seen. But most of the time I was rubbing my eyes because we were so close to the fireworks I had debris in them. James and Jo were down this weekend and they turned the living room into a sweat shop where they employed everyone to make their wedding favors. It was fun times and Daniel even joined in which made David ask, "Why don't you date him? He helped make boxes." I guess that's all it should take.

I had to work a few hours on Sunday, the National Council of La Raza had their convention in San Diego this week. It wasn't anything spectacular, I would have rather been across the street at PETCO eating dollar hot dogs for the second day in a row. Obama was there though...didn't see or hear him. McCain was there yesterday...didn't see or hear him.

Last night it hurt to breathe deep, so my entire work out with Andrew was not only painful because I had to do one legged Romanian lunges (he makes up these names, I'm sure of it.) but because when I took a deep breath I had this pain in my back and my side. I was concerned enough to mention the pain to him and he said, "It's probably just your spleen." Oh good, only my spleen. Do I need my spleen to live? I woke up this morning to head to the gym but it still hurt. I took that as a sign I needed to sleep in. I'm pretty sure this is the beginning of a Lupus-Lyss flare. My eyes were dry and blurry, my fingers were purple and my spleen hurt. Sometimes I forget I'm living with a chronic illness, I just take my pills in the morning and at night but it doesn't set in until mornings like this one.

Letter

Dear Flake,

I never expected much from you and your friendship. I usually gave more than you anyway. I thought that was what a friend did, and it is. But I've learned never to expect anything from you and that isn't a friend, that's a user. So from now on, you're just someone I know.

Thanks for nothing,
Alyssa

It's Thursday...SYTYCD Update

Katie and Joshua turn it up with the Bollywood action.

The dances were alright and I'm pretty sure I know who is going home. I can't say bottom three, but I can say Comfort and Thayne are in deep doo doo. Last night Katee and Joshua did a never before seen Bollywood routine. I laughed through the entire routine and not because it was bad, it was actually really cool, but because all I could think about was TJ McDaniel during the dang thing. When TJ and I were working at Rocky Peak he would often want to share his music with the office. He happened to have an Indian jam that he was a big fan of and he even had a dance to go with it. It always made me laugh and so I laughed all the way through the dance last night. I promise, I wasn't being insensitive I was reminiscing :)

Just for fun

These are my brothers and I love them a whole lot. It was fun spending the 4th in Fillmore and there are even better pictures of that to come.

Last night I went to Bible study, totally unprepared and a little bit sleepy but it was good. I'm thankful for a friend like Marisela who is willing to call me on something big, even if she didn't really mean to point out the issue :)

I was able to catch Danny on Skype and talk to him in Japan while I got ready for "I Survived a Japanese Game Show." His everyday life as he put it. Last night the loosing team had to be rice farmers for a day and it reminded me of this.

Jobs

I had an interview today. It went well and I felt a positive vibe at the end. Why wouldn't they want me?

Rough week on SYTYCD

What can I say? I know it was a bad week of dances on So You Think You Can Dance because my favorite dance was a contemporary piece my Mia Michaels. Actually, Mia had the best choreography this week by far. I do love Joshua and Katee is proving herself to me. I love love love Mark and Chelsea, they can do no wrong in my book. It's time for Jessica to go and leave Will to fly high. I agreed a whole lot with the judges this week.

In other news, I'm (hopefully) having dinner with team McWatters and then heading to Fillmore for the weekend. I will most likely hit up the car show, stop in on Simon at the coffee shop, run, run and run and then swim, swim, and swim. Hopefully all of these activities leave me tan, tan, tan.

I can't afford to work

It's Wednesday. My gas tank is half full (hey, at least I'm trying to be optimistic) and I paid 20 bucks for 4 pieces of dry cleaning. I can't afford to go to work anymore.

I watched "Wipeout" and pieces of "I Survived a Japanese Game Show" last night. The game show is actually filmed in Tokyo. I was watching it thinking, hey, I've seen that! Marisela and I laughed out loud a lot, that must mean it was REALLY funny. Ah, I needed that.

Happy July 1

This weekend was relaxing. I spent most of Saturday in the hammock, reading Into the Wild. It's a great book and no, this book was not written by Rick Warren, John Eldridge or any other of the Christian authors you can throw out there. This is not Wild at Heart. It's by John Krakauer and tells the story of Chris McCandless' adventure into Alaska. Yes, it was made into a movie but I haven't seen it so I can't tell you if its any good. I can tell you the book is an easy, interesting and over all good read. I've been reading more lately, probably because I'm on a reading team and don't want to let them down. But I probably already have since we aren't in first place and I see no way that will happen in the remaining five weeks of the competition. Hey, at least we all get free lunch for participating. Everyone wins!

Which brings me to another topic. I went to this presentation last week called "Generation Me" and the professor was talking about her research and book she wrote about today's college students. Insightful and funny. Maybe I'll pick up her book next. She talked about how college students today have grown up with the "everyone gets a trophy" mentality and have in some ways been conditioned to think they can never fail. Entitlement comes to mind.

I didn't want to go to church this Sunday. I secretly in my head had decided on Saturday night I wasn't going to go. I even rationalized my absence, what it would cost to drive to church with gas at $4.50+ a gallon. I don't know one person there so they won't miss me anyway, I could just listen to sermons I have downloaded that I haven't gotten to yet. I could do my own study and that would be more beneficial to me. Well, the alarm went off and I jumped in the shower and got ready. I was dressed and everything and was still convinced I wasn't going to go. I pulled out the milk to have breakfast and spilled it, cussed and then realized I desperately needed to go to church. I've gotten so...I don't even know the word. It all just seems so hard, community.

When Andrew asked what I did this weekend and I said nothing, it didn't surprise him. He asked why I'm so antisocial with my awesome personality. I thought he was being sarcastic and I told him I hated him (the usual response to anything he says) and he said he really wasn't being sarcastic. It made me start to think about a lot of things and I can't even spell it out right now.

I can tell you I'm excited to see my family and friends this weekend.