My Friend Rennie. Merry Christmas!

Fifel might be cute, but I would still kill him

I got my car fixed and it turned out to only be about $70 worth of wiring a rat had chewed thru. Still, annoying. I had my car parked for less than 24 hours and they were back at work. Only this time they decided to eat thru a sensor which is a pretty penny. I don't get it, why my car? I wish they would find a new place to live and something better to eat.

It was high school winter camp this past weekend and God moved in a huge way in my own life. For the past two months it's been like a hide and seek game with God, except that I didn't really want to play and I was about to give up trying to find him. He allowed me to encounter him in new ways and reminded me that I have to know he's at my side even if I don't hear him. He's given me so much in the past few days it's been refreshing and eye opening. Have you ever experienced God in a new way and been like, that was weird!? Only it isn't really weird because God can communicate with you in so many ways but you're just awe struck when He chooses a new way. Yeah, that's where I've been and I kinda feel like a freak but I know it's him.

My family made it to church and I wasn't even there to hold their hand. Huge praise. I only hope this isn't a one time deal. I miss you all.

It's only been a week

It feels like this week has been a month long. I guess it's because I went to a concert, Hume Lake and I'm sitting in on a class today at The Master's College. Wess, maybe I'll be a big C after today. My car is breaking again. Not a surprise is it Aaron? Josh said I need to just get a new one but that stresses me out. I tried to sell it to him but it was an offer he could refuse. Hume was fun, Sarah and Mac got married. It was also overwhelming with all the Joshua kids I haven't seen in so long.

This week has probably felt so long because I'm still in a valley and feeling like I'm walking alone. It's gotten a little better but it still sucks. I wish I had a good friend here with me now.

Brutally Honest

This life seems like a waste of time. Why can't I just get to heaven where I don't have to deal with the things here on Earth? I'm mad. I feel abandoned and I that makes me feel selfish. Then I feel guilty. I'm being attacked big time and I don't know where to turn.